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Jodi Sh. Doff's avatar

How timely, for this to arrive in my inbox today. After losing 60 pounds, it’s starting to creep back because I’m doing secret eating, again . You know if you don’t see me it doesn’t count. If I eat walking, it doesn’t count. Doing the same thing with over exercising. I care for my mom so they sleep deprivation on top of it. But, today is my first visit with a new therapist. First time in a decade or two.

I’m going to look for a nutritionist as well, thanks to your prod. I think I know everything already, but I don’t and more to the point, I don’t listen to me. I know it’s emotional eating. I know the first one is the trigger. I’m clean & sober 34 years. I know. Oy. Thanks for sharing.

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Tim Ebl 🇨🇦's avatar

Thank you for your comment! It really helps to have someone to talk to. A therapist, nutritionist or coach can help you focus on what's important for you.

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Jon's avatar

Tim, your vulnerability and honesty in sharing your story are incredibly powerful. Your line, ‘I was either going to get help or cash in my chips and leave the casino,’ speaks volumes about the depth of your struggle. This piece is a raw, yet hopeful reminder that recovery is possible, and you’re providing a crucial voice for men battling in silence. A truly impactful read.

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Tim Ebl 🇨🇦's avatar

Thank you for reading and commenting, Jon. I do want to let guys who are silently struggling know that it isn’t just them, they aren’t a freak. When you’re in a spot like that it’s hard to see that there IS a way through.

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Amy Grisak's avatar

This is profound, Tim. I completely see why you started down this path, and how that delicious, yet lethal, combination of fat and sugar and salt held on so tightly. Thank goodness you took a different direction, and now offer so much help to the rest of us who are on similar journeys. Keep up the great work!

Six years ago, I had a gall bladder attack. Of course, they wanted to take it out, but I said no. I changed my diet and have been fine ever since, although within the last two years, I've been complacent and allowing myself "bites" here and there, which add up! I'm 18 pounds heavier than I want to be, but am pulling myself back on track as I'm now five pounds down from a month ago. It's not always easy - as an example, I really didn't feel like quinoa, garbanzo beans, fresh veggies and chicken breast for lunch - but that's what I'm having!

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Tim Ebl 🇨🇦's avatar

That’s great that you kept your gall bladder. I understand that it’s one of the most common surgeries to have in the US. That’s the thing, it’s not about the weight. Weight gain is a symptom of inflammation.

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Marlo Leaman's avatar

Thanks Tim for being so raw in sharing your journey. Very brave and brave to continue on days when it (still) can be a struggle. The key is if ‘slips’ happen that we don’t beat ourselves up and let it derail us. And chasing our mindset to ‘I choose not to have that’ vs ‘I can’t have that’ has helped me.

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Tim Ebl 🇨🇦's avatar

You're right, it's about how we frame it. That is exactly how I see it now. I can choose what foods to eat. Sometimes, my choice is that burger and fries from a fast food joint.

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Marlo Leaman's avatar

Exactly! Sometimes it’s that burger and fries and we choose to have it, not beat ourselves up and move on- get it out of our system I think so it doesn’t lead down that slippery slope!

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Tim Ebl 🇨🇦's avatar

Yes. It’s like an electrical charge that will build and build the more we beat ourselves up, until we get zapped.

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Philipp Maerzhaeuser's avatar

Super interesting to read how it started for you.

The investigation into the crime scene is eye-opening and I take the liberty to use the term SAD (never heard the term before) in future publications.

I allow myself once a week to commit crime to my body.

It’s better to stay away from processed foods altogether, but I like the damage containment approach

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Tim Ebl 🇨🇦's avatar

I know I’m not alone in having a trigger even that brings all the bad stuff into front position. What I learned afterwards is how much certain foods could make me even more emotionally unstable.

Once a week reward meal? That’s totally a part of my intentional eating plan for myself.

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Philipp Maerzhaeuser's avatar

Let’s meet for a cheat meal. Burger and fries?

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Tim Ebl 🇨🇦's avatar

Sure! I might sub in a gluten free bun

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Philipp Maerzhaeuser's avatar

Let’s do this 😉

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Nancy A's avatar

Thank you for such an open and honest post. You should be proud for the changes you have made and for sharing so much info with us. It makes me sad that I didn't try to help my late husband in a more proactive way. I just assumed he didn't want to try, not that it was a true addiction. I struggle also with losing 20ish lbs, but am determined to do it the right way! Thank you!

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Tim Ebl 🇨🇦's avatar

Thanks for your support, it means a lot to get feedback like this. I believe that a good way to work through our dark parts is to shed some light on them. It helps me, anyway.

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Erik Hogan's avatar

Wow, that's an intense struggle Tim! Thanks for sharing.

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Tim Ebl 🇨🇦's avatar

Thanks! It’s always a bit rough putting stuff like this out there but I think it’s valuable for others to know about

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Erik Hogan's avatar

Yeah, I'm very guarded about what I share, so I'm sure it's not easy. But I agree it's very valuable insight!

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Sally Doran's avatar

Incredibly honest and relatable story of the binge eating issue from a man’s perspective! I don’t know if I’ve ever read a man’s experience. Thanks so much for sharing this !

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Tim Ebl 🇨🇦's avatar

That’s why I wrote it, because men aren’t sharing their struggle. They just hide it

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Amy Roberts's avatar

Thanks for this Tim. I’m ashamed to say that it never entered my cranium that men can suffer with eating disorders too. I’ve never heard it talked about - I appreciate you shedding light on this.

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Tim Ebl 🇨🇦's avatar

It’s not your fault you’ve never considered it. We are all a victim of society programming. I think it’s helpful to notice that everyone has struggles we can’t see.

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Kristi Keller 🇨🇦's avatar

I remember reading this one last year and it made quite the impact. Before this, you're right, I always thought eating disorders were more women than men. That may be true but you've definitely shed light via your journey.

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Tim Ebl 🇨🇦's avatar

I have met a couple guys who had anorexia, and one with bulimia. Those were guys with a diagnosis. And I’ve talked to lots of men with binge eating struggles. Then there are guys who do extreme food restriction or almost have phobias about certain foods.

But most guys would rather die than talk about it. So it’s hard to figure out how widespread it is. I would guess the numbers are much, much higher than anyone would believe.

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Kristi Keller 🇨🇦's avatar

I bet you're 100% right about that. It's sad!

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Miriam Rachel's avatar

I think I remember your post from way back. All I can say is reading this brought me chills as it reminds me of those awful caregiving burnout days when I ate myself to 300 lbs and I am sure I was eating 4K+ calories a day. Thanks so much for sharing this once again as it helps others in this position feel seen, heard, and validated that their struggles are real.

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Tim Ebl 🇨🇦's avatar

Thanks, I’m glad for your support. I’m even more glad that we are both in a better place with food now!

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Miriam Rachel's avatar

Yes !!

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Jill_KeyWellnessllc's avatar

Incredible work to achieve a healthy lifestyle!

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Tim Ebl 🇨🇦's avatar

Thank you. It does take work.

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Ken Barber's avatar

This is what semaglutide (Ozempic et. al.) does for you. It gets rid of the cravings — and the cravings are stronger than you are.

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